Honestly, after my trip to Nashville to visit death row, I wont be there should he be executed. I got what I needed last month.  I can definitely understand others wanting to be there...I did too at one point in time.

Thanks everyone!!  I admit, I kinda shocked myself with some of the things I said and did while I was in there.  But I also know it was things that had to be done.  Thanks to the chaplain, I didn't lose the nerve!  She was incredible.  I know I've said that already but she really was a major part in all of it.  I think I shocked her a little bit when I said I think God created the lockdown to give me time to grow to semitrust her enough to ask her to be in there.  Otherwise, I wouldn't have wanted her in there and Im pretty sure I would have chickened out and left running.  She and I have even emailed back and forth a couple times and she said something in one email that made me cry. I'm going to find it and copy and paste.  Can't misquote a priest!!!  THere's enough marks against me, I'm sure! LOL

 "Meeting you and being part of the meeting between the two of you is one of the most significant spiritual occurrences of my life. Again, thank you. Peace,Jeannie"

THat from a catholic priest!!! 

I can vouch for her potty mouth!!!   Like Mama like daughter!   I've heard it and seen it in person   

ohhhhhhhhh stfu!! lol 

Yea, I'm sure some poor pathetic anti will grab hold if it and run.  If that's what they need to do to pacify time...let em have at it.  I know what that day did for me and that's all that matters. 

STILL no baby??? did yall try all the classic things to get it started???

holy bejesus....    I cried the first time and I'm tearing up again....   

I still tear up everytime I think about that day.  But I smile at the same time 

OH!  And that Monday on the drive up, I went to the town we lived in before she was murdered.  Seems the ofc who took the original report is now the chief of police.  He remembered the case and the call...and me! 

I went to the house we lived in...drove straight to it.  Weird how small they seem when you grow up.  If I knew how to get pics from my phone to the site, Id post the pic of the house, sign at RIverbend and distant pic of death row.

Mama wore Chanel No. 5.
Her first car she bought by herself was a green 73 Ford Torino.
Her favorite band?  the Rolling Stones
She LOVED dancing.  She danced everywhere and anytime music was playing. 
She ADORED my brother and me.
She used to live in Memphis on Scott St.
When they had a steakhouse in Memphis, I would go up there with whoever...and she was working.  She would fix me cherry cheesecake, put the plate in front of me and always kissed the top of my head.
She had a potty mouth. lol I do too....eek!!  But he said if Connie cursed you...it was because she cared. If she didnt care, she just didnt even speak to you.  She didnt have the time of day for you.
She was a GREAT cook...southern cooking like she grew up on.
She was apparently very anal about keeping her house clean.  (apple didnt fall far from the tree on that one either)

He told me other things but those are my favs.  Afterwards, I just told the chaplain I wanted to go.  He kpet talking for a few minutes but I had to go. I was done with that visit.  I dont know if I'll ever go back.  May...may not.  But I can say it definitely changed me.

Good Morning, everyone! Or evening...depending on where you are.  NO offense taken on any posts anyone made. I've been around these boards long enough to know about the random psychotic anti that pops in to start stuff.  I knew the people who DO know me and the story would either be proud of me or be like some of my "family" and think I was an idiot.  Anyway!!  Here goes a lil run down of that days events.

The previous night was filled with Jack Daniels, so the morning of...let's just say was slow, painful and VERY EARLY due to my fears.  I got to the prison right on time and was about to pass through all the metal detectors and have all my searches performed when guards came rushing in the front door of the prison and some grabbed the chaplain and myself.  She was there to be with me during the process should I have any questions or want to talk about anything.  She Also happens to be Donnies chaplain.  We were put in a conference room with one of her volunteers.  She had a radio attaced to her hip so we heard everything going on.  Apparently, there was a lockdown.  It lasted for almost an hour and a half.  In that time, I was able to talk to the chaplain about some things.  Some I wont post on here because well, yall understand.  Finally, it was time to go back.  THe gates locking and closing behind you every 50 feet or so was STRANGE!  When I made it to death row, I was locked in a small room with the chaplain.  I knew he would appear on the other side of the glass at any minute but I just couldnt make myself look up.  I knew when he came in because I could see the corner of his sleeve.  I looked up at the chaplain and told her I just wanted to leave. She looked at me, pointed out I hadnt waited almost 27 years and driven half way across the state to back out now.  She was right.  I had to do this.  So I looked up.  THe second I saw his eyes staring at me, I lost it.  27 years of anger and rage towards him came flowing out like water from a faucet. He dropped his head and wouldnt look at me.  I told him I odeserved this and he owed me at LEAST hearing me out.  Ok, so I yelled it at him.  BUt he looked up and he looked me straight in the eyes as I told him how my childhood was because of him.  How HIS SONs childhood was because of him.  I pointed out things about that night she was murdered that no child should know about. I pointed out my last memory of her was walking away from the door that day as she went shopping and she never came back.  I told him how that memory haunts me.  Told him how I cant even turn to look at my babies when I leave them somewhere because what if thats the last memory they have of me?  There was alot of yelling, crying and anger.  The anger was released. 

Then I did something I had to do.  I told him it wasnt for him. I didnt care about him.  I had to do it for me.  I couldnt keep hating him and keeping so m uch anger built up inside me.  It wasnt hurting him at all...just me.  So I looked him in the eyes and told him I forgive him.  Ill never forget but I had to forgive him or I would never move past it.  He offered to drop all of his appeals if it would help me.  Even had the chaplain convinced to get his attorneys to the prison.  Said he was wanting forgiveness from me and my brother and I had finally given it to him.  I thought about it....letting him drop them.  But then I told him no.  TOld him I had spent 30 minutes telling him how his own son was rasied in HELL because of him and his selfish actions.  I wanted him to sit there and think about that. 

Then I told him in almost 27 years, no one would tell me things about my mother.  I drove three and a half hours, was sitting on death row staring into the face of the man who was convicted of killing her.  He was GOING to tell me what I wanted to know. And he did....

Guess who visited death row last week.

With that being said...this also proves, in my opinion, the death penalty works.  Echols didnt fry. 

I am a pro. BUT, I don't think this is a case where they are guilty. I am the same age as these guys and I remember all this.  So they went around "bragging".  Damien SAID he did that.  He also said he was a stupid kid and thought at the time people would be scared of him.  He truly didnt think it would end up like this.  The DNA doesnt match. The confession? Just watch him even in today's clips.  That kid is NOT all there.  Damien AND Jason Baldwin said he just kinda hung around.  And explain West Memphis PD's TOTAL "F" up with the Bojangles man.

http://www.myfoxmemphis.com/dpp/news/west-memphis-three-given-time-served-for-murders-mfo-20110819

OK. Baldwin is making me tear up.

Baldwin just said he didn't want to take the deal because he didnt do it...he didnt want to admit it but the state was going to kill Damien and he said "sometimes you just gotta bite the bullet to save someone".  So without the deal they just took, Damien was still on death row? Right?

Is this all on CNN??? Its ALL OVER LOCAL!!!